What a day!

I went to church today well on the Internet anyways. My husband and I are partners with Dr. Creflo Dollar ministries. The message was great, he talk about fear and how not give place to it because it's like giving place to all kinds of unwanted circumstances into your life. With all the things that has happened to me and my family it's almost like we feared even the ground we walked on. I'm thankful I got this message today it gave me a new out look on life. I have the power to change my circumstances and I feel great.
I'm not sure if my husband did get the message though. Because a few hours after he let fear set in. I know things are hard for us right now and we do what we can but I've decided to do my very best and leave the rest up to God. That's not to say I'm just going to sit on my butt and wait on God, No. I'm taking the first step and I'm letting God lead me the rest of the way. I have to find a job and I'm going to.
There was a time when staying home with my kids was great. I spent time with them, I read to them, I was there when they got home, those times have past. Now I have to think provide for them. It's almost like I hate it now because I can't give them the most simplest things anymore and it hurts. So I've been trying to get my mind set on working again and my husband isn't helping at all with all the nagging. Tomorrow is a new day and I can't wait to start on my job hurt. I know I'll find a job. You know I'm a military vet but that doesn't seems to mean anything, not for me anyway. My husband keeps saying that he wishes was me with my military back ground and I keep thinking what a waste. There's not much I can do with that, not for me anyway.
I was suppose to be telling you about some affiliate programs I just joined but I'm just not feeling it right now. So I'll do that some other time. Thanks for listening to me, talk to yo soon :)